And I am sorry for treating you like a revolving door. You deserve more.
From this day forward, you will never be my lover again. The reality has stabbed me deep in my heart and I don’t know why I was so naive to think breaking up with you again and again will have no consequences.
For the rest of my life we will never cuddle, we will never say I love you, we will never make love, we will never talk for hours and laugh and get mad at each other again. No more camping trips. No more hanging with friends. Its all gone.
Never again in my life will I be with my lover and best friend. I can’t believe I ever thought that was ok.
The weight of this truth is hard to deal with and even harder to accept its all my fault. Am i so ignorant?
I am sorry I failed you. Im sorry.